While in Thailand I’ve been away from my clothes. All of my thrifted, colorful, and at times off the wall clothes are in the boxes I packed them in before I headed out on my adventure. As odd as it must sound, I miss my clothing. I miss looking each morning at my collection of pieces and deciding what I will wear to match my mood. I miss playing dress every morning. Now true, it does not make sense to have my clothing collection here in the ridiculous heat. Even if I did have all of my choice pieces at my disposal I would still probably chose what I am wearing now, a t-shirt and guy shorts. I’m not even wearing any jewelry outside my cartilage ring. It is just too hot. But I know my clothes are waiting for me back in the states.
I imagine them anticipating my arrival and getting excited for me to come home and unpack them. They are ready to be worn, if only to the library and Target. And I am excited to, I’m excited to match a floral summer dress with a pair of overly loud earrings. It’s who I am, or at least a part of who I am. It’s an expression of who I am. The clothes don’t make me, I make the clothes (sometimes literally). My sense of style does not shape who I am, or even influence who I am. Instead, who I am, what I feel, and what I believe shapes what I wear. And to be fully honest, what I wear is often times just for me. Sure other people will see what I wear and that’s a part of it sometimes, but I wear what I wear because I am expressing a part of who I am. I think self expression is more for the self than it is for anyone else. If I were to stop expressing myself altogether the world wouldn’t end, the only person it would really affect is me. I don’t know what I would do if I couldn’t say how I felt in one way or another. I. Me. My. That’s what I’ve learned in my simple clothing state, what I wear is for me.
Catch you on the flip side.
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