Lately things have been crappy, and I've used the word "crappy" so often its starting to lose all meaning.
Every area of my life seems to not be going as planned, and now is not a time I feel I can be dealing with this.
Throughout this week I've been doing things that would normally make me feel better. Things like hanging with friends, trying to catch more sleep, even cooking, none of them worked. Sometime I guess you just need to ride things through.
No, nothing has been worked out, and I am going to have to start next week with the same "issues" it ended.
But today the sun was out, the weather was nice, I took a trip to the library, and I took a step back. I didn't worry about all the "issues" I needed to deal with, or all the important tasks I had not completed. I simply enjoyed the day.
Do you ever do that? Just enjoy the day?
I learned today that I don't do it enough.
I am taking a whole year off from school, and I'm waisting it by not letting myself enjoy the days.
I get caught up in the things that need to be done, I miss the things that should be making me happy. True, there are things that really do need to be done. But I should be working harder at finding joy in them, instead of letting my day be filled by, what feels to be, a bunch of tedious tasks. I also need to take out things that aren't necessary.
As far as the "issues" on my plate, a friend told me today to "start with whats in front of you." So that's what I'm doing. I am not going to try to tackle everything at once, but one at a time I'm going to get through.
I was going to start this post with an apology for my lack of blogging action.
I have meant to blog, but as you can see I've been a bit busy.
I'll keep you updated and...
I'll catch you on the flip side.
1. Take four deep breaths
