Sometimes the homesickness is OK. I can think about home and not miss it too much, or hurt inside. But sometimes, like now, it's really bad. I just finished skyping with my mom for the first time since I got here, and I am missing home like crazy. I'm halfway across the world and all I want is to be with my family and friends. I continue to wake up and expect to be in my bed in Minnesota, but instead I'm in Thailand. And every morning I have to adjust to not being in my bed. This would be easier if I haven't dreamt of home every night since I got here. But I can't help it, I miss home.
I feel guilty saying this because I know how blessed I am. I am in Thailand, I had been looking forward to this for months. The people here are so kind and helpful, translating for me and getting me around when I need it. I know adjusting takes time, I continue to be told of that. But that knowledge does not seem to make things easier, it just makes me wish for that allotted to of adjusting to be over so I can enjoy what I have.
I don't want to complain. I did not start this blog to complain. But I started writing in a sad mood, and this is what you get. I'm sorry everyone.
Catch you on the flip side.
1 comment:
Hang in there litle lady!! Some of us Mid-Westerners/Family are sooo jealous of your extraordinary adventure!! I didn't even know you were heading half way across the globe until I got an email from your mom saying "Faith's in Thailand!!" WOW!! Amazing my friend!! And I can't wait to hear and read ALL ABOUT IT!!! Make sure you take tons of pictures and post them too! Especially this giant Buddha!! How very cool that will be!! Enjoy your trip and just keep in mind how very fast the time flew leading up to your adventure, as the next thing you know it will be over and but a faint memory.... As I'm sure your mother will remind you with her very own tales of a Jamaican cruise missed... Come on, you have to laugh just a little at that one!! :O) Keep up the posts, even the homesick ones- cuz you know there's somebody here missing you just that much more.
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